My kind of scenario

What would your worst scenario on love be like?

Breaking up with your lover, or having your love unrequited?

Varies to every individual. But then again, my point is that I'm now in the strangest, emptiest state I've ever been in my whole life: Not even knowing whom to love.

Like in some point in your life you'll realize how much love you have, it feels like you're actually carrying something in your heart. And when one's love is wasted and abandoned, how would one feel?

I've never been in those heavy broken heart situations though, but I can at least imagine how we can still see hope in suffer.

In breaking up cases... They suffer because they have had stories, which unfortunately, unlikely to repeat. Maybe that sucks, but there's 'hope' in hopelessness, and that is the fact that they used to be lovers. Even if they don't reunite and continue living their lives on their own, the memories stay there. All the loveliest time, sometimes the bad ones. The relationship's destroyed but it left a beautiful gift to be opened anytime you wish it to be remembered. And that's a blessing.

Unrequited love? Silly to say but I believe having someone to look upon each day still sounds a lot more fun than not having anyone to even think about.

Comparisons, unjust comparisons. But then again it's my point of view.

"I'm not sure who I'm looking for

I'll know it

When I see you"

John Mayer - Love Song for No One

Well, then. Emptiness is evil, isn't it?

The liberated, yet abstracted mind.

Elvia

Cleaning the dust out of the blog

Hi5! Um, okay, look what I've done. Been neglecting this blog for almost like, 7 months? It's not like I haven't logged on to the internet for so long, well, it's the laziness to start writing. And just now I decided to write a new post, waiting for sleepiness to attack. It has to be now, or I'll forever be a procrastinator.

So much time has passed, so many things have changed. First thing that changes my life the most is this:

I am now a student of my dream university. I was like, couldn't stop screaming and saying Alhamdulillah when this appeared on my phone browser. I remember that feeling when you finally feel like you've succeed -for once, that everybody congratulates you and for seconds you just feel like the world's attention goes only to you. That's just what I felt. It was warm and beautiful.

...That doesn't stop there.

Being in the right faculty and studying the right subjects (by this I mean, the lessons you feel so passionate about) makes me even happier. Well, it's always hectic being in the Faculty of Economics because it has so many events -unlike in senior high school- but being the committee of some of the events is just fun. I'm even planning to join the student boards next year.

And also, this is what I've been up to: being a proud part of English Debating Society UI. Being a member of EDS has always been my dream since I was still in junior high school. And when I got accepted, I was like........ You know, I just can't describe. And I've got some pictures to share but it's not in this computer, maybe I'll do it later (look, it's me starting to procrastinate again :p )

Another random thing that just popped up in my mind is this word: hatred. Have you ever thought how much time you've spent hating people? Being so mean to a person, watching his/her flaws and make comments about it. Little did I know, that's just stupid. I, personally, don't get the real meaning of "hating". I might have been that person -a hater, and just now I regret it. If we think deeper, the concept of hating is seriously nonsense. We don't like someone for some ridiculous reasons (in most cases, it's because of jealousy. we just won't admit that we are jealous) and then start gossiping about him/her all the time, and his/her failure or depression is what makes us happy.

Get a life.

Why so busy watching other people's lives when you can still do something positive about your life? :)

No offense, but if you feel offended, then stop hating.

♥ Elv

Random facts about me

1. I have one watch and only one

Well, isn't it surprising? I never had any kind of watch but this one. OK maybe I purchased some but I didn't wear any of them but this one. I've had this watch since I was in the primary school and I loooove this watch so much. It's purple, so lovely. I've changed the battery 6 times and fortunately it's still working until now. I wish I'd still have this watch until I'm married and have children of my own..

2. I LOVE EATING

Maybe this is how I look when I eat

This is one fact about me I can't deny. I really, really love eating. I'm not that fat but I do enjoy the art of eating. It's natural that every human will feel better after having good meals. I love Indonesian culinary -mostly. Try Coto Makassar, Seafoods, Sate, Bakso and Bebek goreng! FYI, I love spicy foods. I mean, super spicy foods. Yummmm :-9

3. I have a lot of Japanese comics

I grew up on mangas and cartoons. Comics widened up my knowledge about the world, especially Japanese culture. Oh and I love how Japanese mangas always create a perfect prince figure and sets up sweet love stories. They also have fresh story ideas, the ones we'd never think about before. My favorites are Detective Conan, Hey Miiko, Eyeshield 21, Yakitate Japan, Naruto, Bus For Spring, Shugo Chara, La Corda d'oro and..ugh can't mention them one by one.

4. I love how my mommy looks on this photo

This is an old photo of my mom -maybe when she was 22/23. Found this photo in her document file yesterday, and I think my mom looks beautiful here. She looks like Kartini -a heroine from Indonesia- or something. This photo really shows an Indonesian woman's beauty. She is, to me, the most perfect heroine figure. She gave birth to me when she was 32, while she was trying so hard to finish her doctor's degree. She's the most wonderful woman I know.

5. I appreciate conversations

I know I might not be the only one feeling this, but yeah really, I appreciate every conversation. No matter if it's just random talks, deep conversations, chit-chats, etc. Spending time talking to people is never boring. You never know what you're going to discover about that person, or what informations you're going to absorb from them. Or. Finding out that you and that person have so many things in common. Just plain fun.

What I've learnt today

Howdy! It's been a few months since the last time I wrote something on my blog. I have to admit that I've been busy since it's my senior year and I've to work really hard to get to the university..sigh. But I've been doing really fine, I'm pretty much enjoying my school life now.

So I've just watched this movie earlier today and was amazed.

Rating: 4,5 out of 5, because of its over-length

I was so impressed by the trip that Elizabeth Gilbert--the writer, had. How she divorced her husband because she felt like her marriage was "that empty", and how she decided to spend her money to go to Italy, where she finally got her passion to eat back. Then to India, where she learned Hindu, and to Bali, where she found true love. And Julia Roberts played it so well. Great movie.

So all I'm trying to say is that, this movie reminds me about things I would like to achieve in the future. Here it goes:

1. I wanna be a successful economist

>> I used to be really obsessed in becoming a child psychologist, to help children at younger age in getting a proper education as long as they are capable to be elevated like Kak Kresno did to me. However, as time rolled by, I realized it takes a lot more than taking psychology major to do so. My obsession in taking psychology major was because I was blinded by how I got into the elementary school earlier by some psychologists' helps that I didn't really realize my own passion. It took a lot to finally realize this: I want to take economics major. Being the policy maker in Indonesia economy. I also wanna be a lecturer and share my knowledge to people. Knowledge is better if it is shared, no?

2. I wanna be a happily married woman with 3 children

>> Haven't I told you how much I'm obsessed with marriage? Not to be naive, I really want a marriage. A happy marriage, with a super kind husband and 3 lovely children in it. I believe someday I'll be married to the right man. And if possible, I would love it to be on 02.02.2020 :P Marriage life is something great that everybody would love to get. It's just amazing how two people that are happen to love each other being united as one, by the sacred vows. Beautiful.

3. I wanna die as someone worth remembering

>> No matter how happy your life has been, there must be an end. And when it ends, I want it to be peaceful, with my eyes closed. Though I'll go stiff, cold, and turn into dust, but at least I wanna be remembered as someone. I wanna be that one cool grandma my grandsons will always talk about. It's cool to be remembered. So I'm gonna do something cool to be left as a good story.

♥ Elv

Where are you?

Well, my first question was "How could Facebook read my mind?"

Lately I'm feeling like there's a wall between us. A wall that won't let me greet you like I used to. A wall that separated us apart.


I've always wanted to talk to you, eyes to eyes, heart to heart, but the timing was never right.
Or it's either we have no time for each other.
Last time we talked, you told me these nice words about staying strong even though the world goes against us:

"When you are shining, some people will love you greatly, some will hate you greatly. Stay strong anyway! Let them know that they can't bring you down and you don't give a damn for what they've said." --Dhanti Praspani

And I have always remembered those words! For real, they keep me strong.
All I'm trying to say is,

I miss going out with you
I miss sharing a cup of frozen yogurt with you
I miss being in the same debate team with you,
and holding the trophy together
I miss the way you told me I was a good second speaker
I miss the way we share stories, from the secret ones until the unimportant ones
I miss the way your face turned red every time I tell you my big brother has a crush on you
and I miss going to the salon with you!

I just simply miss talking to you

I'll make all things up before it's too late.

Toy Story 3!

Hi readers! Sorry for taking forever to create this new post. Been busy.. uh, kind of. So all I'm trying to say in this post is that I've watched Toy Story 3 with @tiffanywilliam! Glad to finally met her. Oh and the movie was amazingly funny, amazingly sad and incredibly romantic. Two thumbs up :)

Rating : 4.5 out of 5

It's cool to be happy!

So everybody's fangirling this guy and I'm not.

Know this Bieber guy?



Yes, everybody's been fangirling him with sooper enthusiasm. Maybe he's cute, but that's all. For me, someone's better :3








Jean-Baptiste Maunier, my all-time favorite singer, actor, guy, and everything. He has an angelic voice -- you could hardly believe he could reach those high voice. He has a pair of Emerald green eyes, which confuses me. Yes, this is my perfect prince figure.

Arrivederci,
Elvia♥